Wow im a winy little bitch!

I swear I bitched at everyone today! I think im gonna start blogging again....Ive been really angry lately. So anyways lets catch everyone up to speed! (no not the drug) Its the summer before my senior year and ive got nothing accomplished that ive planned....well except for making a cool fishie picture and getting drunk-

Ok moving along, I have a story to tell~ its called "Monk is creepier in real life than on tv."

And here is how the story goes..

There once was a girl

who's face made everyone wanna hurl.

Red blotches on her face did hit.

in fact some would call it a zit!

She went to the house of dermatology-

And when the doc came through the door

he was creepier than my last whore.

He had a high pitched voice

so high i bet he had a small peiner.

Aw man ya should of seen her....opps!

He had brown hair

what we thought, he didn't care.

he touched my face

said he wanted me to pop pills.

yeah a pedofile that has got some real skills.

(no im not high)

As he flinched away

it was obvious he was a germaphobe.

I guess when I sneezed he didn't want to stay.

And then it hit me.

almost like the time I stepped on that bumble bee.

He looked like someone ive seen before

and no not my last whore.

monk is the name.

face touching is the game.

Oh yeah! This is meant to be a rap...so yeah you might wanna re-read with a cool funky little beat. And I swear this is all true.....see the crap ive gotta live through!

backwards ~ spɹɐʍʞɔɐq

We are a family of lies.
A family where there are never happy hello's,
but ecstatic goodbyes.
Grudges created before my time
still hold strong.
I wonder how long this has been going on.

It saddens me to see everyone cry.
She feels abandoned and betrayed.
and her daughter created problems to big for a band aid.
this isn't a pretty immediate family shade.

People were never meant to feel this way.
Its not god's intention,
for families to have this much tension.
Constant fighting from secrets,
and apologies from guilt.

No wonder our souls are starting to wilt.

I realize that none of this is from intention.
but we need a family intervention.
I wonder if that day will ever come.
Hopefully this backwards family will succumb

Love Stain

A heart races; the mind runs
and you smile.
Almost as if you knew how this felt.
Your a charmer
and you know it.
I cant stop liking you.
Its torture.
Your lovely voice,
is pure delight.
Your teasing eyes,
very tempting.
I want your smile.
Ive wanted it for years.
While this pain persists
you just keep charming me.
But every now and then you look at me.
And that's worth the pain.
Your my love stain.

Must see stop motion videos

The first one is a funny short film called t-shirt war but for some reason the whole video will not fit into the space allotted so just click on the video to pot it out of the screen, trust me you don't want to miss it. The second one is a stop motion that goes with music and the third is a white board stop motion. These are my Faves.

Said and Meant

You won't talk to me,
You won't look me in the eyes.
You know what you've done,
And yet you pretend like your right,
When you know your wrong.

You smile in the hall ways at me and say "We need to hang soon."
But then I text you, only to be ignored once again.
You didn't see these eyes cry after everything you put me through.
You didn't see me.

You dumped your true friend on the sidelines.
You did it because you found some one who will condone what you do.
Someone who you can control.
Someone who will follow with you.

You said some hurt full things to me.
I continue to hold my tongue.
Because I know that the things I could say,
The things I want to say, Shouldn't be herd by anyone.

And when she isn't there for you anymore,
And you come crawling back to me.
Ill remind you what you did.
But I know you. You won't apologise.
You'll get mad.

If only you could learn to say "I'm sorry"
Everything would be fine.
You need to realise that everyone is wrong sometimes.

And, When you get mad and refuse to realize.
You ll see me walk away,
And never turn back till those words are said and meant.

Quiting the Spring Play

Everyone keeps asking me why I quit the spring play this year. I quit because I couldnt handle being there anymore, the stress, and I didnt have a part. I couldnt handle it because I felt like crap everyday there because of my friends. After being criticized and excluded by my friends I couldn't take it anymore. It became too stressfull to be there that for my last two practices I attended I left barely holding it together. Only to burst into tears as I steped outside. I didn't have a part so I could quit this play without too much regret. But I will always regret quitting what I love. So now you Know.

Friendship War

I feel so hurt inside.
I know part of my heart has died.
I see Miranda with her boy and Rachel with Tyler.
I don't fit in with them anymore.
Life is hard when your in a friendship war.

Miranda, I understand why you quit the spring play.
But it somehow hurts me in a small way.
You don't talk to me anymore,
and now I'm without a friendship Lure.

Tyler, You still don't trust me after that one fight.
All the hurt full words you continue to recite,
Make me feel messed up inside.
I don't like this friendship ride.

Rachel, Its obvious you don't give a damn about me.
I see now that you don't want there to be room for three.
Your comfortable about excluding me.
I cant afford this friendship fee.

Can I still call you guys my friends, If I feel this way?
True friends wouldn't make my feelings disarray.
I guess you guys just don't like me anymore.
At least its an end to this friendship war.