backwards ~ spɹɐʍʞɔɐq

We are a family of lies.
A family where there are never happy hello's,
but ecstatic goodbyes.
Grudges created before my time
still hold strong.
I wonder how long this has been going on.

It saddens me to see everyone cry.
She feels abandoned and betrayed.
and her daughter created problems to big for a band aid.
this isn't a pretty immediate family shade.

People were never meant to feel this way.
Its not god's intention,
for families to have this much tension.
Constant fighting from secrets,
and apologies from guilt.

No wonder our souls are starting to wilt.

I realize that none of this is from intention.
but we need a family intervention.
I wonder if that day will ever come.
Hopefully this backwards family will succumb

Love Stain

A heart races; the mind runs
and you smile.
Almost as if you knew how this felt.
Your a charmer
and you know it.
I cant stop liking you.
Its torture.
Your lovely voice,
is pure delight.
Your teasing eyes,
very tempting.
I want your smile.
Ive wanted it for years.
While this pain persists
you just keep charming me.
But every now and then you look at me.
And that's worth the pain.
Your my love stain.

Must see stop motion videos

The first one is a funny short film called t-shirt war but for some reason the whole video will not fit into the space allotted so just click on the video to pot it out of the screen, trust me you don't want to miss it. The second one is a stop motion that goes with music and the third is a white board stop motion. These are my Faves.

Said and Meant

You won't talk to me,
You won't look me in the eyes.
You know what you've done,
And yet you pretend like your right,
When you know your wrong.

You smile in the hall ways at me and say "We need to hang soon."
But then I text you, only to be ignored once again.
You didn't see these eyes cry after everything you put me through.
You didn't see me.

You dumped your true friend on the sidelines.
You did it because you found some one who will condone what you do.
Someone who you can control.
Someone who will follow with you.

You said some hurt full things to me.
I continue to hold my tongue.
Because I know that the things I could say,
The things I want to say, Shouldn't be herd by anyone.

And when she isn't there for you anymore,
And you come crawling back to me.
Ill remind you what you did.
But I know you. You won't apologise.
You'll get mad.

If only you could learn to say "I'm sorry"
Everything would be fine.
You need to realise that everyone is wrong sometimes.

And, When you get mad and refuse to realize.
You ll see me walk away,
And never turn back till those words are said and meant.

Quiting the Spring Play

Everyone keeps asking me why I quit the spring play this year. I quit because I couldnt handle being there anymore, the stress, and I didnt have a part. I couldnt handle it because I felt like crap everyday there because of my friends. After being criticized and excluded by my friends I couldn't take it anymore. It became too stressfull to be there that for my last two practices I attended I left barely holding it together. Only to burst into tears as I steped outside. I didn't have a part so I could quit this play without too much regret. But I will always regret quitting what I love. So now you Know.

Friendship War

I feel so hurt inside.
I know part of my heart has died.
I see Miranda with her boy and Rachel with Tyler.
I don't fit in with them anymore.
Life is hard when your in a friendship war.

Miranda, I understand why you quit the spring play.
But it somehow hurts me in a small way.
You don't talk to me anymore,
and now I'm without a friendship Lure.

Tyler, You still don't trust me after that one fight.
All the hurt full words you continue to recite,
Make me feel messed up inside.
I don't like this friendship ride.

Rachel, Its obvious you don't give a damn about me.
I see now that you don't want there to be room for three.
Your comfortable about excluding me.
I cant afford this friendship fee.

Can I still call you guys my friends, If I feel this way?
True friends wouldn't make my feelings disarray.
I guess you guys just don't like me anymore.
At least its an end to this friendship war.

Waiting for our First Sight

As the sun sets, and the day ends.
I feel my heart beat.
It's unsatisfied sound stirs in the night,
Waiting for him to come to me.
I may not know who he is or what he looks like,
But i know he's out there somewhere.
I don't know where in life's journey we will meet.
But the thought of meeting somehow wakes me after a lonely sleep.
I try to look and dress better than before.
For I know we will meet soon because my heart is becoming so soar.

Mini Farmville

Today I started my Mini Farmville. I Started to germinate tomatoes and peppers. I also tried to save my tree and poinsettia from dying. I love plants and hope to get my strawberries seeds soon and post some pictures of my plants when they grow big enough to plant. I'm kinda weird and always name my plants so if u want to help me name them suggest some names. I have a lot to name.

*** Naming Them Helps Them Grow.***

Why did you abandon me?

We were good friends at one time.
So close like a partner in crime.
Friendship was the one thing I could guarantee.
Why did you abandon me?

I was always there for you.
I stuck up for you,
no matter how much damage it did to me.
Why did you abandon me?

We once had a lot to talk about.
But now you just try to force me out.
Look at what your doing to me.
Why did you abandon me?

I needed you.
And that you knew.
I was sad enough to be trapped on my knees.
And there you stand, thinking your above me.
Why did you abandon me?

Though it is true I'll be fine on my own,
You need to know, your boyfriends are sort of a loan.
Trading for short term happiness, but in the end you'll be alone.
When your alone I'll be there, not doing what you did to me.
I forgive you like god says, but our friendship will never be as it you'st to be.
Why did you abandon me?

Suprising Screams

My sister screams,
Taking her excitement to it's extremes.
Storming out of her room,
"Whats all this hoobla about?", I say.
"Dogs coming on Saturday!"
...and the rest is basically us screaming.

Sorry friends, but my Saturdays booked! Going to see dog!
Cant Wait =)

A few memories of him

She tripped, and began to fall.
Her cheeks turn red
and people laugh.
He turns around,not laughing
and offers a hand
She feels her cheeks burn.
unable to form words or breath
she smiles.
He returns the smile and leaves.
Her smile fades as she is left alone without him.

A few months later.

As she watches the ceremony
Her eyes dart across the room,
Searching for him.
The speaker calls his name.
With a diploma in one hand and a smile on his face
She cries inside,
So happy he graduates.

Almost two years pass.
She sees him every now and then.
And she can't help but smile.
<3

Center Stage

I hear the music
that's my que
one last breath
all the practice I've been through
comes down to now
well that moments here
I make my appearance
except it really isn't me
my heart quickens
words and emotions erupt out of me
what is this feeling?
the lights shine but i do not cringe
the fear is still there
but it slowly numbs
we take our bows
and the show is over
I think its a new beginning
concurred the fear the stage
and cant wait to perform again

Good Night-Good Morning

As I lay here, mind getting closer to sleep.
I wonder how much time my thoughts will keep.
Time floats by, sinister and sly,
when your too drowsy to count the clock.
Before you know it, the clock you must stop.
For you hear buzzing and ringing
instead of a pleasantly singing
that wakes you out of a dead cold sleep
I rush awake, head to my feet
getting up and ready, most likely I'm late.
School is about to start but all I can think about is the sleep that still remains in my heart.

*goodnight everyone*